Collide visual art and little stories of Orykeene

It is the deepest loss for my deepest soreness.
He was my precious one, my best friend, my true love. My first true love.

I ran so much after him. I waited him so long. Being with him was a dream. An infinite promise that everything will be alright because he held my hand. He was here and it should have been enough.

But something happening. An insidious something. Our situation changed. He changed. I lost him. The storm came in my heart. He broke with me. He left me alone. He pushed me away abruptly.

12 days of silence.
12 days of hopes and falls.
12 days of disregard.
12 days of unanswered questions.
Why? What did I do wrong? Where are you? Where am I in your heart? Have you met someone else? Do you love me no more? Why?

And I had to admit and to face. He doesn’t want to be with me anymore. He doesn’t want to speak with me anymore. And worst, maybe he doesn’t love me anymore…

3 years of love, of ups and downs and a lot of sweet moments. It’s the end. I don’t really know why.
Uncertainty. Fear. Waterfall. Doesn’t trust “us”. Doesn’t love me enough. Avoidance.
He left.

It hurts like a million of meteors crashing all around and over me, destroying everything, my heart.
He left me alone. And I can barely understand why.

So I let the sorrow raining, raining, raining, raining, raining in my heart.

He left me with a terrible hole in my life. Not the kind of hole I could fill easily with someone else, quickly. I was that kind of person. But it’s a deeper hole. This time, I don’t fear to be alone. I am scared to go without him. I lost him. I lost a part of myself.
It’s such a mistake to build so much of your life around a single one. Sooner or later, something will go wrong.

I have no choice than going ahead.
It’s useless to hang to this dead branch. I tried. I tried my best to resuscitate this heart with no more beat. But I’m not the only one who can decide, and it’s definitely dead now.
Don’t go against the flow, you will lost and break yourself. Let go, just let go, just follow the flow.
Everything happens for a reason which becomes clear one day.
We have to become what we have to be. Just let go. Just make the most of today.

But it’s so hard sometimes. It’s so hard now. I know it’s over. I feel this rain in my heart. It could be so easy to let me drown. Sometimes I let me drown by this so heavy sorrow. Moments out succeed irreparably to moments in.

Time heels. One day, the rain will stop. One day…
No one can’t know, except Time.

“I’m everything that you made me
So now I’m nothing at all
Did you think you could break me?
Break me after the fall
Looking over your shoulder
Everything that I see
With eyes a little bit older
So now you’ve got to believe
Someday, you’ll find your place in time
One day you’ll realise”
(The Devlins – Someday)

Hello dear readers and welcome on the new collide! I hope you enjoy this revamp as I wish this new version may have a longer life than its predecessors.
For starting I wanted something simple to use. I would like to let evolve the blog with time. I didn’t want to spend too much time and energy for a thing that isn’t worthwhile eventually. I only use the bare necessities…
So :

• No elaborate header illustration.
• This blog is not SEO friendly (for the moment).

Depending of the future of the blog, I will proceed with gradual changes.

Previously, I spoke about creating a second blog fully dedicated to the dollie stuff. I’m not sure about that. Managing 2 blogs is time consuming, and I still don’t know if I will have time for that. So, we will see later.
I’m not as musch inspired as I would like to be for this first post, so see you later guys!